they’re the same picture
[image ID: three large gifs of hen and karen in 6x02 and three large gifs of buck and eddie in 5x13. Hen sits down and tells Karen, “I failed. I failed.” Karen asks, “Failed at what?” Hen breaks down in tears and say, “Everything. Everything. I failed.” / Eddie holds a baseball bat on the floor. He’s sobbing. He says, “They’re all dead.” Buck asks, “who-who’s all dead?” Eddie continues sobbing and says, “everybody that I saved. They’re all dead.” /end ID]
i pulled four people out of that chopper alive… i pulled them out. but i didn’t save them.
[Image ID: Four large gifs of Eddie’s traumas reflecting the deaths of his fellow soldiers. Gif one: From 3x15. Eddie gets shot through the wrist while fighting in Afghanistan. Text reads, “Chief died in country a couple years later.” Gif two: From 2x17. Shannon laying on the sidewalk surrounded by bystanders and firefighters. Eddie runs forward to talk to her. Text reads, “Norwahl died in a car crash.” Gif three: From 4x13. Charlie hands Eddie a bottle of eyedrops. Text reads, “Binder OD’d.” Gif four: From 5x06. Mitchell steps out of the back of the ambulance and puts a hand on Eddie’s shoulder. Eddie turns to look over his shoulder with his arms up in surrender. Text reads, “and Mills shot herself last August.” /End ID]
do you ever think that maybe it’s not worth it? what we do for a living?
(eddie diaz + never feeling good enough)
Image ID: Five large gifs of Eddie Diaz. Gif one: from 3.08. Eddie breaks down in tears while talking to Bobby. He says, “I forgave her for everything and it wasn’t enough. I wasn’t enough.” Gif two: from 3.15. Eddie is laying in a hospital bed with a sling around his arm, his chest and face covered in blood. His commander says, “You did good, Diaz.” He replies, “Doesn’t feel like enough.” She says, “Never does.” Gif three: from 5.02. Eddie is sitting on a cot in a tank top during the blackout. He tells Buck, “My kid loves her [Ana].” Buck replies, “Is that enough?” Gif four: from 5.08. Eddie leans forward against the firetruck with one hand clutching his chest after him and Buck fail to find a kid in the burning hospital. He tells Buck, “This kid, he was eight years old. And his sister?” Buck replies, “I know.” Eddie bursts out, “What are we supposed to do with that?” Gif five: from 5.13. Eddie’s face is covered in tears. He sits at the dining table with Buck after revealing that everyone he served with in the Army is dead. Eddie tells Buck, “I pulled them out, but I didn’t save them.” /End ID
9-1-1 SEASON TWO
⤷ requested by anon
Image ID: ten small gifs from 911 season two. Gif one: from 2.18. Eddie picks up Christopher and hugs him. Gif two: from 2.12. The bartender sets a stack of shots on fire. Gif three: from 2.01. Maddie leans forward against the shower wall after Buck walks in on her. Gif four: from 2.04. Chimney, Buck, and Bobby look over the edge of a wall at a security guard who fell through the cracks. Gif five: from 2.15. Schematics of the vault. Gif six: from 2.07. Bobby talks into his radio. View of the ocean behind him. Gif seven: from 2.10. Eddie takes a video of Christopher meeting Santa. Buck leans in next to him. Gif eight: from 2.08. Maddie and Chimney do karaoke together. Gif nine: from 2.17. Christopher sits on the beach and builds a sandcastle. Gif ten: from 2.14. Eddie squats on the roof of a burning building and leans over the edge. /End ID.
for @nymika-arts — hen + buck
Image ID: ten small gifs of Buck and Hen with red and blue coloring. Gif one: Hen rips a video game controller from Buck’s hand while they’re sitting on the couch together playing a game. Gif two: Buck stares at his phone in the backseat of an Uber while Hen smiles at him. Gif three: Hen gives Buck a red velvet cupcake on his first day back at the 118 after injuring his leg. Gif four: Buck throws his arm around Hen’s shoulder while Hen throws her arm around his waist. They walk off frame together. Gif five: Hen is carrying a kid on her back after being trapped in an earthquake. Buck throws an arm around her shoulder and pulls her head to his chest. Gif six: Buck and Hen sitting in the back of the firetruck. Hen listens to Buck while he rambles. Gif seven: Buck and Hen hug at the Christmas party in season five. They sway back and forth. Gif eight: Buck holds a piece of mistletoe over Hen’s head and kisses her on the cheek. Gif nine: Buck and Hen in the loft. They stare at the stairs as Lucy walks in. Gif ten: Hen holds Buck up after he collapses after spending all day looking for Chris in the tsunami. /End ID
there’s nobody in this world i trust with my son more than you… and thank you. for not giving up.
for @thatbuddie — buddie + pastels
[Image ID: seven gifs of Buck and Eddie with blue and pink pastel coloring. the first, fourth, and seventh gif are large, the rest are small and mostly black and white. Gif one: Buck and Eddie drink beers on Buck’s balcony. They’re standing on opposite sides of the frame. Gif two: Eddie rants about technology while Buck and Christopher sit on the couch. Gif three: Buck and Eddie are standing on top of a firetruck waving down a plane. Gif four: Buck tries to get Eddie to talk to him on his first day back at the 118 since his injury. They’re standing on opposite sides of the frame. Gif five: Buck opens the door for Eddie after the shooting, revealing a welcome home party for him. Gif six: Eddie holds Buck’s shoulder while telling him there’s nobody in the world he trusts with his son more than Buck. Gif seven: Eddie reaches for Buck after getting shot. They’re standing on opposite sides of the frame. /End ID]
what if you came with me? no more mom and dad. no more doug. just you and me against the world. you and me in the world. …but where would we even go? doesn’t matter, the point is to go.
for @tripleaxeldiaz — the buckley siblings
[Image ID: nine gifs of the Buckley siblings, four square gifs on top and bottom divided by one large gif in the middle. All gifs are in a black, white, and red color palette. Gif one: young Maddie helps young Buck ride his bike. Gif two: Maddie holds up a postcard from Buck. Gif three: Maddie parks the Jeep with Buck in the passenger seat. Gif four: Maddie hugs Buck. They’re both crouched in the snow, Maddie is covered in blood. Gif five: large gif of Maddie and Buck in Buck’s loft locking pinkies across the table. Gif six: Maddie throws the Jeep keys at Buck and he stumbles as he catches them. Gif seven: Maddie and Buck lock arms while they go through the postcards from Buck. Gif eight: Maddie and Buck box each other. They’re both laughing, Buck holds his arms up in defense. Gif nine: Maddie cups the side of Buck’s cheek in a reassuring gesture. /End ID]
i am no doctor, but i’ve been where you are, and i think you’re getting
stronger. you’re stronger than you think you are, maddie.
for @bucksear — maddie buckley + pink
[Image ID: eight gifs of maddie, four colored black and white, four colored pink. Gif one: pink gif of Maddie reaching for the upper cabinet in her kitchen and yelling at Buck when she finds out he put a baby lock on it. Gif two: pink gif of Maddie in a black shirt talking to Chimney. Gif three: black and white gif with a light pink gradient on the left side. Maddie is sitting and staring out the window while on the phone with Chimney. Gif four: black and white gif of Maddie smiling while watching a video of Jee-Yun crawling. Gif five: pink gif of Maddie smiling while reading a postcard from Buck. Gif six: pink gif of Maddie in Abby’s house talking to Buck in the kitchen. Gif seven: black and white gif of Maddie extending her pinky out to Buck. Gif eight: black and white gif with a pale pink gradient on the left. Maddie is laying on her bed with a baseball bat. /End ID]
that’s the difference between you and i. i don’t worry about things that i can’t control
for @enbyeddiediaz — eddie diaz + purple
[Image ID: eight gifs of Eddie Diaz, four colored purple, four colored black and white. Gif one: purple gif of Eddie on Buck’s balcony drinking a beer. Gif two: black and white gif of Eddie lacing up his boots. Gif three: black and white gif of the back of Eddie’s turnout jacket. he’s laying face down in a bathtub. Gif four: purple gif of Eddie wrapping Ana’s hand. Gif five: purple gif of Eddie walking into the bar and spotting the 118. Gif six: black and white gif of Eddie crying on the beach with a sunset behind him. Gif seven: black and white gif of a helicopter flying over sand dunes. Gif eight: purple gif of Eddie in the back of the ambulance, leaning over his knees. /End ID]
i remember when i first went on medical leave. it was like all the noise outside stopped, but the noise inside my head got louder. i think, sometimes, the life we lead, the hours we keep, our focus on other’s well-being… we wind up ignoring our own. that’s not what’s happening here. i’ll be fine. once I’m back on the job. i think that might need to wait a little while.
[Image ID: Four large gifs with the lyric, “I will return / once I have learned / to stop / the bleeding,” from Man Overboard by Max Milner. / Gif one: from 5.11. Eddie looks at Bobby, then looks down, after Bobby says he cannot come back to the 118 yet. / Gif two: Bobby hands Eddie’s transfer request forms back over to him. / Gif three: Eddie is sitting at his kitchen table looking tired. He leans forward to kiss Christopher on the head. / Gif four: multiple short clips from the shooting in 4.13 and 4.14 put together as a montage with a red gradient in the corner. /End ID]
5.11 OUTSIDE LOOKING IN // 2.01 UNDER PRESSURE
—how it started vs. how it’s going
[Image ID: four square gifs paralleling buck looking at eddie in 2.01 and eddie looking at buck in 5.11. buck is watching eddie get dressed through the locker room glass. eddie is watching buck laugh from across the bar.]
so what are you gonna do? i think I’m just gonna stick it out… stick it out? that’s not the way you talk about someone you’re in love with.
[Image ID: five gifs paralleling buck’s advice to eddie in 5.02 and the way buck treated taylor in 5.11. the first and last gif are black and white, the middle three are blue and pink. Gif one: from 5.02, buck tells eddie, “I know what it’s like to be in love with someone who is not all the way in. Deep down you know it, and it hurts.” / Gif two: taylor smiles as buck hesitantly says, “I think you should move in with me.” / Gif three: lucy and buck kiss while playing pool. she leans in, he doesn’t push away. / Gif four: buck opens a door on the firetruck and stutters while telling hen, “I love Taylor.” / Gif five: from 5.02, buck tells eddie, “It hurts worse than the truth. So if you don’t want to hurt Ana, you owe it to her to be honest.” /End ID]
i just want to make sure you don’t think you have to lose everything before you can allow yourself to feel anything.
Gif one: Buck is leaning over Eddie, covered in Eddie’s blood. The gif is black and white. Text reads, “Sorry about the mess.”
Gif two: Flashing black and white gif of Buck dragging Eddie under the firetruck after he’s been shot. There’s a glitch effect before transitioning to Eddie sitting up in bed, waking up from a nightmare. Text reads, “I guess it’s your mess now, isn’t it?”
Gif three: Two gifs transitioned together. One of Eddie laying in bed with an arm behind his head, the other of him next to Buck, clutching a baseball bat and sobbing. Text reads, “yeah, i guess it is.”
—don’t make it weird. i love you.
—good… love you too.
Image ID: Three gifs with the quote “I was so desperate to be understood / that I would grab people and shove them inside my heart where they stuck out like splinters / and it would hurt every time i felt anything.”
Gif one: fades between two gifs, one of buck jumping in bed alone and one of Taylor kissing him in bed. the quote, “I was so desperate to be understood,” is centered in a box with a black and white effect behind it.
Gif two: black and white gif of Buck hugging Taylor. He appears tense and uncomfortable. The text is split into a row on top and a row on the bottom.; “that I would grab people and shove them inside my heart where they stuck out like splinters.”
Gif three: Buck turns around in shock after Taylor tells him he loves her; “and it would hurt every time i felt anything.”
(then where else could you be but in love?)
[Image ID: The quote, “I think love is like death / as in it happens to everyone but you / until it happens to you,” spit into three large gifs.
Gif one: Black and white gif of Eddie reading Shannon’s letter to Christopher after she died.
Gif two: Black and white gif of Eddie rocking side to side, leaning against his fridge after breaking up with Ana.
Gif three: A colored gif with white gradient on the top right and bottom left corners. Eddie approaches Buck at his welcome back party and envelops him in a hug. /End ID]
